Friendship

Have you ever lost a friend? I don't mean losing them in a shopping mall, but losing their friendship, rather. Maybe you or they moved to another city and found it difficult to keep in touch. Or, you had a disagreement that was simply never resolved. Either way, sometimes certain friendships are never fully lost and you can find yourself holding onto the last thread just in case it is ever resurrected.

There are certain secondary school friendships I miss having today. I often wonder what it would be like to have a personal relationship with some of those girls and guys today -- not just through Facebook -- and if we'd have anything in common any more. I also wonder if I would be friends now with people I didn't care for so much back then! I imagine it's quite possible.

Certain friendships last a lifetime. No matter how far away you physically are from each other, or how infrequent you communicate, that moment you meet again feels like you were never apart. I have one of those. It's literally been more than four years since I've seen her yet know we're still close deep down.

I recently started rekindling an old, long-lost friendship after a nearly 3 1/2 year "split". It was actually really hard to make the effort to reach out to see if there was anything there. Luckily, I was met with open arms (c'mon, not literally, give us some time!) and am enjoying seeing where things go. It's really weird starting up an old friendship, though. Other than knowing a lot about this person, it feels like we just started dating. Neither wants to wreck the "new" relationship but both want to re-get to know each other. The good news is, we seem to have even more in common now than before, so I feel very happy with and optimist of the situation thus far.

I found an excellent quote to sum up my feelings:

Great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget. 

Dreams Can Come True

Over the years, I've done a little research on the interpretation of dreams. It's usually prompted by the occurrence of a dream strange or disturbing enough to warrant investigation. Since I don't blog much anymore, you've probably guessed that one such dream must have crossed through my unconsciousness mind last night. You'd be right.

I'm not going into details regarding the dream itself. I can tell you that it bothered me enough that I decided to write about it with minutes of waking at 1:30 am. I also knew that the issue presented within the dream would need to be addressed in "real life". There clearly is an underlying fear within me if I'm 1. dreaming about it, and 2. very bothered by seeing it vividly expressed in my thoughts. My main concern was that at some point in my life it might come true, and my primary emotion over that thought was a deep sadness. I'd rather not experience that, if I can help it.

Whatever you're trying to imagine it was about, don't bother. It's nothing earth shattering; just something I feel strongly about having stay within my dreams. I'll also research what it could possibly mean, although I'm pretty sure I already know. I'll take this as an opportunity to make a change now while I can.

As I lie awake last night pondering the dream, pondering life, and pondering why the dog likes to steal my covers, I was appreciative that dreams existed at all. Otherwise, I wouldn't have a new blog post for you today... or a subsequent one, because I already thought of another idea :)

Resignation Tendered

I officially emailed in my resignation today. No, not for my job! I decided that with all my competing priorities, I needed to drop something. So, TOPS it is.

Being area captain was something that I really wanted to excel in but it's just not working out right now. If you read my prior blog post, it's pretty clear that I have a full plate. I'm only one person with only 24 hours available in a day. And I need to sleep!

I haven't heard back yet from my coordinator in response to stepping down from the position. All I can hope for is that she understands I simply have other things going on in my life that I need to take more time for. At least with one thing off my list I feel like I can breathe a little easier. That is to say, until I pick something else up in its place... Just kidding ;)