Sometimes I wonder why my brain acts like it does. Is it heredity? Am I just bonkers? Did something in my upbringing cause me to act a certain way? Who knows, but these questions will occasionally pass through my consciousness.
Specifically, I have issues with obsessing. It can be over any sort of thing; such as seeing a Dairy Queen commercial on TV and thinking about a sundae for days until I get one; or dwelling on something someone said until some new thought or situation deems it null and void; or needing my desk to be in a certain order or organizational pattern. Often I need to snap myself out of a thought pattern to realize that what's going on inside my brain is ludicrous and just plain stupid.
This trait of mine can be quite annoying. I not need the material goods or food I dream of, or have the right idea about what that person said or did. My visions are not reality. My wishes are false. I just need to keep reminding myself of that and use good judgement, self-control, and objectivity to straighten my brain out.
I'm sure this all sounds quite silly, but if you struggled with it you would really want to know why it even happens in the first place. Some so-called professional wrote a short article regarding "The Obsessive Personality". There were maybe two or three points I felt were valid; otherwise it was a bunch of hooey and absolutely did not apply to me. I do NOT think I have a serious obsessive compulsive type of disorder, but I do feel that I need to be very aware of my thoughts and feelings and be smart in my decision-making.
